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legionworld2017-01-21 06:42 pm
turntex) wrote in legionworld2017-01-21 06:42 pm
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Who| Dave, Kubo, Sariatu
What| Everyone is distressed after coming back from their missions and a sleepover is very much needed.
Where| The meteor on the Hab Deck >> Kubo and Sariatu's rooms
When| The night of the return from the SH and NSC missions
Warnings/Notes| A lot of sads
[When Kubo goes to fetch Dave for the night's plans, he'll unfortunately find his normal room empty. After his post to plea for help and Babbage's unfortunate news, Dave had swallowed down what felt like an oncoming panic attack and fled down to the Hab Deck where he could be properly alone. Down into the depths of the meteor, through silent stone and metal halls until he came to the part of the lab they'd converted into something of a communal living room.
Dave slumped onto the couch there, curled up, and pulled his cape up over his head. Yeah, he's down with just laying there for a few hours. Not sleeping, just lying still in the quiet far away from other people where he can focus on his breathing and not panicking and not worrying about anyone seeing him upset.
Distantly, he still remembers that Kubo and his mom wanted him to come have dinner with them, and there's a little pang of guilt over ditching. But it's numbed down enough by the overwhelming anxiety and depression that he can kind of just ignore it. He shoves his shades up to rub at his eyes, at tears that don't actually form no matter how much he feels like they should be -- and god, it only makes everything feel worse that he's so emotionally fucked he can't even let himself just cry properly, like a normal kid who's lost someone they love. It briefly feels like anger, at this Time Trapper shit or himself or Bro or who knows, but even that quickly sputters out into just more sadness.
Fuck.]
What| Everyone is distressed after coming back from their missions and a sleepover is very much needed.
Where| The meteor on the Hab Deck >> Kubo and Sariatu's rooms
When| The night of the return from the SH and NSC missions
Warnings/Notes| A lot of sads
[When Kubo goes to fetch Dave for the night's plans, he'll unfortunately find his normal room empty. After his post to plea for help and Babbage's unfortunate news, Dave had swallowed down what felt like an oncoming panic attack and fled down to the Hab Deck where he could be properly alone. Down into the depths of the meteor, through silent stone and metal halls until he came to the part of the lab they'd converted into something of a communal living room.
Dave slumped onto the couch there, curled up, and pulled his cape up over his head. Yeah, he's down with just laying there for a few hours. Not sleeping, just lying still in the quiet far away from other people where he can focus on his breathing and not panicking and not worrying about anyone seeing him upset.
Distantly, he still remembers that Kubo and his mom wanted him to come have dinner with them, and there's a little pang of guilt over ditching. But it's numbed down enough by the overwhelming anxiety and depression that he can kind of just ignore it. He shoves his shades up to rub at his eyes, at tears that don't actually form no matter how much he feels like they should be -- and god, it only makes everything feel worse that he's so emotionally fucked he can't even let himself just cry properly, like a normal kid who's lost someone they love. It briefly feels like anger, at this Time Trapper shit or himself or Bro or who knows, but even that quickly sputters out into just more sadness.
Fuck.]
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It was unnerving, Dave being so quiet. And it was hard to know what to say, when there wasn't anything he could really say that was both positive and truthful.
'I'd be a screaming wreck still if I didn't have Mother here' was the truth, but it wasn't the right thing to say when Dave was also struggling without someone he cared for.
"I'm sad about Karina," he said. They both had to be. They could agree on that one. "I'm worried about you."
He didn't have nightmares about plains of acid or crawling through miles of pungent, humid tunnels in the dark all the time.
"I don't know about okay," he admitted. "But I could be worse."
I'm glad you're still here, he thought, but didn't say. Dave might be wishing to be back on his real meteor at that point, when his friend had obviously meant so much to him.
"I'm sorry I didn't get to meet your friend, too," he added.
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The idea that it might be the latter was depressing.
"She deserved better," Dave agreed simply, shoving his hands deep into his pockets. "Kinda makes it feel shitty to be upset about anything else, huh? Like, someone fuckin' died, everything else should kind of pale in comparison."
It didn't, though.
Frowning, Dave fell silent for a minute and angled towards an elevator to leave the Hab Deck. There was only a forest separating his meteor from this one, a patch of large evergreen trees that he could only assume was significant to someone else.
"You would've liked him," Dave finally went on after a bit, shrugging. "He's funny. He gets worked up over everything. And he eats up love stories like he needs that shit to live."
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"And if he's back home . . . maybe you'll get to see him again. Maybe he'll come back here. Or you'll see him again when you go home -"
Assuming, either, that Dave disappeared like Karkat did. Which was a depressing thought for Kubo - but he could muster up happiness for his friend, if Dave was back with HIS friends and family. And it didn't seem like too much to believe could happen, when his mother had come back from the dead to be here.
"- I guess you probably don't want to be cheered up right now, though," Kubo added. Otherwise Dave wouldn't have been lying alone in the dark on a deserted meteor. "What would he do, if he were here now? After a mission like that?"
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"Probably make sure everyone was doing alright. He always makes a big fuss about seeming tough and and he always seems mad but honestly, he's a big softie, always lookin' out for everyone."
And meanwhile Dave had just wanted to go hide away with his boyfriend after a mission like that. Shows who's the better person between him and Karkat.
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Kubo slid into the elevator, holding the door for Dave to follow. He didn't distinguish Dave's downness yet as anything but due to missing a friend - certainly he didn't recognize that it had turned inward.
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"Yeah."
More than he could possibly say. More than would be "normal" for a dude just missing his best dude friend, certainly, so he didn't expand on that.
The doors opened up again at the ship quarters, and Dave stepped out with just a little incline of his head. "C'mon," he said instead, "Your mom's waiting, I assume."
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As far as he knew, having an older friend did mean missing them this much.
"She's worried about you, too," he said. Then went on, thinking that Dave ought not to think he was only inviting him over because they cared from a worried perspective.
"We both wanted to see you. Even if you weren't having a hard time . . ." he shrugged a bit. "It's comforting to see your friends when you've been through a terrible thing, and you're our friend." He paused. "The Silent Horizon was a terrible thing. So Mother and I wanted to see you again, too."