He chokes and gasps, still hyperventilating. He can't get his breathing under control. He feels like he's suffocating. He knows he's too young to be having a heart attack but that's what it feels like.
His nose starts bleeding from overexerting his powers. He's not using them consciously, he has no control over it, but his body's still reacting to the strain and it feels like his head is going to explode.
"I can't make it stop!"
He can't make the telekinetic chaos stop because he can't make the feelings stop.
He manages to float back down to Earth, but not all the way. The field of teke around him is so charged up he's still vibrating a little bit off the ground.
"Pidge is gone," he says in between ragged gasps, his voice cracking. "The Time Trapper sent her back home. I don't know if I'll ever see her again. She was like the first other best friend I ever had besides you."
Mabel knows how significant that is. She's always made friends easily in general and always found other best friends besides him just as easily, like Candy and Grenda, but this was the first time he'd found a friend like that on his own. Even if Pidge hadn't been his girlfriend, this still would've hurt this much because she was his friend first - she was his best friend first.
His eyes had been welling with tears this whole time, but it's only now that he starts actually crying. He wipes at his nose with his arm, because not only is it bleeding, tear-based snot is dripping out.
"And all this stuff happened on the mission, and it's just more stuff on top of the old stuff, and - and now it's like I can't breathe and my head feels like it's going to blow up all at the same time!"
And it feels like something's ripped his heart out.
"And...I didn't even get to say goodbye."
Dipper finally reaches for Mabel now, because even with her being gone for so long, it's still instinct. He knows he always can, doesn't feel the urge to try to seem all grown up and like he knows what he's doing around her. He can just...be. He can be this. He can be all messed up. He can be anything and it's okay.
He's able to get his teke to die down enough to hug her and cling to her, finally pulling his feet back down to the ground, but it still doesn't make the teke storm - or the panic attack - stop.
Still, the storm dies down just a little bit, enough that Wash and Marjara and anyone else that wants to help can possibly fight their way through.
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His nose starts bleeding from overexerting his powers. He's not using them consciously, he has no control over it, but his body's still reacting to the strain and it feels like his head is going to explode.
"I can't make it stop!"
He can't make the telekinetic chaos stop because he can't make the feelings stop.
He manages to float back down to Earth, but not all the way. The field of teke around him is so charged up he's still vibrating a little bit off the ground.
"Pidge is gone," he says in between ragged gasps, his voice cracking. "The Time Trapper sent her back home. I don't know if I'll ever see her again. She was like the first other best friend I ever had besides you."
Mabel knows how significant that is. She's always made friends easily in general and always found other best friends besides him just as easily, like Candy and Grenda, but this was the first time he'd found a friend like that on his own. Even if Pidge hadn't been his girlfriend, this still would've hurt this much because she was his friend first - she was his best friend first.
His eyes had been welling with tears this whole time, but it's only now that he starts actually crying. He wipes at his nose with his arm, because not only is it bleeding, tear-based snot is dripping out.
"And all this stuff happened on the mission, and it's just more stuff on top of the old stuff, and - and now it's like I can't breathe and my head feels like it's going to blow up all at the same time!"
And it feels like something's ripped his heart out.
"And...I didn't even get to say goodbye."
Dipper finally reaches for Mabel now, because even with her being gone for so long, it's still instinct. He knows he always can, doesn't feel the urge to try to seem all grown up and like he knows what he's doing around her. He can just...be. He can be this. He can be all messed up. He can be anything and it's okay.
He's able to get his teke to die down enough to hug her and cling to her, finally pulling his feet back down to the ground, but it still doesn't make the teke storm - or the panic attack - stop.
Still, the storm dies down just a little bit, enough that Wash and Marjara and anyone else that wants to help can possibly fight their way through.