"I remember how it felt - the last month Amélie LaCroix existed. I think we are lucky my apathy keeps it at bay or I might not have come back, and just stayed with the Catastrophists as one of them." And she was pretty sure Garrus had picked up on how well she had seemed to fit the cult. But that didn't matter right then.

"Part of our trials was to endure emotional pain. This woman tapped into our mind and called forth our most painful memories. Made us relive them."

She shook her head. "It was clearer than I am ever able to recall on my own. I would call them repressed memories, except I know they were purposefully filtered to keep me functional when they took everything else away."

She was rambling, very unlike her, about things she shouldn't talk about. But what was the point in holding fast to secrets that don't matter anymore. Or maybe she was subconsciously testing Marjara's amazing ability to look past what she was.