failed he failed they failed he can't-

Not again not ever they can't lose her (lost her, they've lost her, years ago they lost her and he tries to steady himself with the future knowing of that but it's both of them all of them every time he can't he can't he can't-

Hands on his shoulders and the world doesn't right itself, still breaking, fracturing under their feet- but it does go still. He goes still, helmet tipping up to meet an unfamiliar armor set. Who-?