Strangely, he doesn't imagine she'll judge him for this. Maybe that's why it comes out so much more easily than it did for York...or perhaps he paved the way for this sort of open honesty from the people he expects to keep as allies.

"I happened."

To all of them. And not taking pride or joy in his work doesn't erase it. Neither does regret, if that was something he felt at all. It's still difficult to say what that weight is, when he's never had anything of its magnitude to compare it to.