He's been a Legionnaire for months, and Wash still doesn't know how to ask for help. Remedial classes for that one tend to go by the name of therapy, which is why he doesn't sign up.
And it's what lands him in situations like this. He didn't make himself clear, he second-guessed himself and kept doing it, and now he's hurt Chief. He dragged Chief into this situation, and now he's letting him flounder because Wash can't get past his own issues.
Spend the day trying to help people, get a stark reminder that he's still not out of the habit of hurting them. The more things change...
He hunches his shoulders and squeezes his eyes shut, pulling the blanket tight around him. As always, his attempts to will himself to disappear fail. He can't leave without making it worse, and it's not going to get better on his own.
Well. Maybe he can do what he's been doing all day and try to fix it.
He breathes out slowly and opens his eyes. "It's not your fault. I didn't start relying on Maine until we'd gotten to know each other, and that took a while. I just...didn't want you to feel obligated just because we're friends and I'm spending the evening feeling like shit." He pauses. "Probably would have helped if I'd led with that, huh." Why can't he have these moments of clarity before he causes problems?
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And it's what lands him in situations like this. He didn't make himself clear, he second-guessed himself and kept doing it, and now he's hurt Chief. He dragged Chief into this situation, and now he's letting him flounder because Wash can't get past his own issues.
Spend the day trying to help people, get a stark reminder that he's still not out of the habit of hurting them. The more things change...
He hunches his shoulders and squeezes his eyes shut, pulling the blanket tight around him. As always, his attempts to will himself to disappear fail. He can't leave without making it worse, and it's not going to get better on his own.
Well. Maybe he can do what he's been doing all day and try to fix it.
He breathes out slowly and opens his eyes. "It's not your fault. I didn't start relying on Maine until we'd gotten to know each other, and that took a while. I just...didn't want you to feel obligated just because we're friends and I'm spending the evening feeling like shit." He pauses. "Probably would have helped if I'd led with that, huh." Why can't he have these moments of clarity before he causes problems?